React.

Listen while you read: Sigur Rós, Varúð (the video is also beautiful, it gave me chills down the spine)

This another of my "deep experimental kinda well written posts", you can find some others here. Tryin' to give you guys some quality! Tell me if you liked it and if not, why: it helps me getting better and better at this stuff. Hope you enjoy!

Sometimes the only thing I want to do is hiding under something: my bed, my desk, anything, alone in the dark, hugging my knees and bowing my head to the overwhelming feeling of oppression. Sometimes it's (bitter)sweet to surrender to depression. Depression is like an old friend that comes to visit you from time to time; she's familiar, she's cruel, and, more importantly, she knows you very well. She knows your fears especially well, she knows all your hidden thoughts and your intimate nightmares, she knows your secrets by heart and could viciously recite them like a  dreadful poetry. 

Her soft, painful voice makes me numb and makes me long for a lifetime sleep. It's like a merciless lullaby, irresistible and scary, it's like I'm Odysseus and she's a siren.

So, when my old friend pays me a visit, only an extraneous, cozy and sweet song can wake me up from my dizziness, from my discouragement. You can fight the sirens with wax ear plugs, or you can fight them with another song, even more powerful than theirs.
So I listen to it with my eyes closed and my ears open.
I listen to it as the sense of numbness slowly slips away.
Then I can see the light, then I can open my eyes to the world and open my lips in a smile.
Sun, here I come.
I raise my arms to the ceiling, pretending it's the sky, and ask someone, anyone, for strength, the strength I lack of. And the tears make this all too pathetic to stand, so I raise, I straighten my back and clasp my fists and feel my nails into my skin and suddenly I don't feel bad anymore, or pretend I don't feel bad anymore.
But that's not important. What's important is I reacted and fought away Depression. For now, at least.

Pants, top & necklace: H&M

Ballet flats: Il Laccio

Bag: Accessorize

Lipstick: H&M

Nail polish: Pimkie

Thanks for reading, folks <3

P.s.: I was thinking of doing a video series to publish here on the blog in which I'll teach you some Italian conversation basis! You know, numbers, saying your age, greetings, booking a table and other useful stuff. You can find the poll down here or on the right, exactly under the blog title. If you could vote it'd mean the world to me!

Would you be interested in a series of videos in which I teach you some Italian words/conversation basics such as greetings, saying your age etc.?

Nails- 9 (spun sugar technique)

I've always wanted to try the spun sugar technique myself , I really love the 3d effect that it gives to your manicure! And even if it's a bit messy (all that cleaning around your nails after it!) I really enjoyed doing it.

Supplies used: Deborah 01 French Manicure (white), Kiko 338 (lilac), Kiko 340 (light blue), Kiko 297 (green), Kiko 279 (yellow), Kiko 357 (orange), a toothpick and a little plate.

Supplies used: Deborah 01 French Manicure, Kiko 338, Kiko 336 (blue),  dotting tool, a toothpick, a little plate.

This one was actually my first time trying this technique, I wanted something easy to begin with so I decided to do only two nails and do the rest differently. I'm not a big fan of mixing prints (on my nails! I don't have any problem with mixing clothes with different prints), so I was very surprised when I realized I really loved the result!

Jewellery I crave: Etsy finds (mostly rings)

When it comes to jewellery, especially rings, I've noticed that I particularly like handmade rings that look a little rustic or that represent flowers/nature/botanical stuff. I made a little list of some of my favourite rings (and two necklaces!). I wouldn't mind at all to let them join my collection :)

1: Three Bud Ring by BrazenDesign 2: Silver Flower Ring by Menno 3: Industrial Flower Ring by Q2jewelrycollection

1: Cactus Quartz Crystal Overgrowth Ring by TentativeDecisions 2: Quartz Crystal Overgrowth Knuckle Ring by TentativeDecisions 3: Stem Two Finger Ring by AlexandraFiddes

 1: Rustic Brass Ring by CoolColorJewellery 2: Rustic Hammered Wide Band by HeliconiaJewelry

1: Sterling Silver Rutilated Quartz Beaded Ring by BirdandBeed 2: Silver Branch Sterling Silver Ring by WatchMeWorld

 1: Contemporary Silver Necklace by HeliconiaJewelry 2: Ombre Necklace of book pages and papers by PaperStatement

Special mention: Druzy Agate Ring by natureselementsjewel

Special mention 2: Sterling Silver Rustic Mens Ring by Tinahdee

I'd love to give it as a gift to Moreno, I'm sure he'll like it...after all, he is loved <3

Hope you liked my selection! See you next time <3

Dogs, airplanes & mushrooms (and musings on Italian politics)

Listening to: Bob Dylan, Like a Rolling Stone (a f* classic)

Before we begin: happy International Workers' Day everyone! 

Today I want to share with you some thoughts about the (f*cked up) Italian political situation. So if you're not interested just skip this paragraph and go directly to the next, where I write shallow stuff about how the day Moreno took these photos was a heavenly one. I warned you. 

Through Me Pass into the Painful City,

Through Me Pass into Eternal Grief,

Through Me Pass among the Lost People. 

[...]

All Hope Abandon, You Who Enter Here.

Dante Alighieri, Divina Commedia, Inferno, III (and I'm not exaggerating)

First of all, because I'm lazy and 'cause it would take me more than one single post (let's say, even more than ten posts) to explain everything, you can read this article explaining the situation after the elections for a new government in February 2013 (it's pretty accurate) and this one about the messy re-election of Mr Napolitano as President of Italy (first time ever that a President is re-elected here).

Now, my story. 

On the 21st and 22nd of April 2013 the citizens of my Region had to vote for the new President of the Region, and this was the first Election after the elections in February and those for the President of Italy (some days before).

Now, a flashback: look at the old me (seven years younger, a fresh 18 year old girl, idealist, still full of trust) stepping in the little room in my town's theatre, all thrilled ad without even having received my Voter ID Card, to vote for the Democratic Party's primary elections (at that time it wasn't called Democratic Party but something like "The Olive Tree"). Observe the joy on my lips, the impatient trepidation as I wait in the queue and my hands trembling as I hold the pencil, all excited to actively take part in my Country's politics for the first time. I don't remember who I voted for, I don't even remember the candidates, but I won't easily forget what I felt in that moment, because I felt those emotions, even if slightly reduced in strength, every time I voted; and every time, when I got off the wooden cabin covered with the deep brown curtain, I couldn't keep myself from smiling for the satisfaction of doing my duty and for the full awareness of belonging to a noble democracy.

This time it wasn't like that. This time I almost wanted to stay at home, to avoid voting, or to leave the ballot paper blank. This time I was so deeply descouraged and disappointed that I voted with a heavy heart.

Forced smile while I enter my polling place, obligatory "Good moning", apathy as I take the ballot paper and the pencil. Then, protected by the curtain, I took my time (more than usual) to draw a cross upon the name I chose. Another smile, a "Goodbye" and, as I stepped off the Elementary School where my voting station was hosted, I couldn't help but crying.

And those weren't happy tears. Not even a small feeling of satisfaction. Only a huge disappointment and the feeling that democracy is tearing itself to pieces.

I was crying for my Italy, because I love my country and I hate seeing it like this.

So, yep, this was a heavenly day. It was the first day of actual heat here (so a week ago, or two maybe) and we took advantage of it taking a walk with Giulio, Moreno's parents' dog. I don't have much to tell you about, it was a nice day, the weather was absolutely wonderful and it was so hot I had to take my tights off after 5 minutes.

Oh yeah, and Moreno found some super rare mushrooms! Check them out below, they're called Morchella esculenta  and, according to Wikipedia, they're "highly sought after"! Of course they're edible (and not only edible but GOOD: they're "among the most highly prized of all edible mishrooms"!), but we didn't eat them, we decided to dried them so that we can eat them later <3

Skirt: vintage

T-shirt: Hard Rock Cafe

Sneakers (not pictured): Nike

Sunglasses: Bijou Brigitte

Bag: vintage

Have a wonderful time my darlings and thanks for reading!

Remix it, baby! (3)

I think this H&M cardigan is one of the items I own that I wore most. Talk about an item repaying its price (which, by the way, was definitely cheap)! I remember when I bought it I was a little unsure of the big oversized fit but I don't regret buying it at all (even if it's 100% acrylic and I always go for natural fibres). I love me some oversized granpa cardigan, ya know.

Btw: how long was my hair?! I adore my new short haircut, so I don't regret getting it, but wow, I didn't realize that my hair was actually quite long in those days!

Original post: A wintertime flea market attire

Original post: Craziness lover, technology rebel

Original post: Double the outfits, double the fun

Original post: Cunning like a fox

So, which one was your favourite? Let me know in the comments! Have a nice one and thanks for reading <3